Oscar "the Grouch" Diaz

missmarijane said: Your dog #gpoys are making me laugh :)

overidealism said: positive thoughts and vibes sent your way from seattle man! you are seriously the best. lots of love from your friend in the north west ✿♥‿♥✿

iceparty said: How do you handle the anxiety? I don't mean to be blunt or personal but I've had some bad anxiety since the start of the year. Finding myself eating and smoking less. Idk what to do.

It’s cool bro. If there’s one thing anxiety has taught me, it’s one element of human nature that brings us closer together.

Anxiety from what I’ve found is always irrational. However plausible it may be or seem, it’s still irrational by definition. By approaching the anxiety with calm logic and, for lack of a better phrase, zen-like wisdom, you can deflate the situations better - and over time - build better reactions to the anxiety that lessens the frequency/intensity.

I’ve been anxious as fuck about death. Or life I suppose. Every thought for some reason was tainted with this foreboding feeling of intense terror.

I’d be watching Batman the Brave and the Bold and hear Aquaman say a throwaway line like “I’ll be doing this for the rest of my life.” And it’d trigger me into this spiral of thinking about what it’d be like getting caught up doing the wrong thing my whole life and meeting death with regret.

Or I’d do something as simple as take a piss and question it completely to the point where I’d worry about not being able to piss in the future for some reason, or getting kidney stones, or any other myriad of things that could inflict my cock’s sensitive system.

To some extent, I had to walk down these paths. There’s a reason I’m feeling this way, and to try to run away from it or dismiss it would be inconducive to my personal growth. My subconscious is firing these fearful synapses for a reason, and by accepting and exploring the anxiety, I was able to come face to face with that. I made sure to dive deep into the feelings, cry it out, and discuss them. Plenty of love and hugs at this stage was very helpful.

Now that I’ve learned my lesson though, I’m ready to get over this mountain. The path to normality is paved like any other road in life, through dedication and focus. Each time I have a thought of anxiety arise now, I’ll quell it with a loving or logical thought, or even reinforce it with strength. For me particularly, it’s focusing on the present and how good it is.

Just some generic thought fixing patterns/mantras I’ve been doing:

"Why am I taxing myself on something that hasn’t even happened yet? I’m happy and healthy now, and that’s all I could ask for."

"No matter what happens, the strength of my spirit is unrelenting, and every previous conflict in my life has proven that."

"This is just a feeling, just a moment, that’ll pass."

"There will always be people around to love and support you."

"There’s plenty of love inside you, let it be."

Such and such. Just deflating any irrational thought with any sort of logic I can spin in it’s direction. And at this point(for me at least), a separation of feeling and a level of ‘cold logic’ is even fine. Focusing on not-thinking a lot of the time, distracting myself, because most of the anxiety arises from over-thinking.

Exercise has been helping a bit, helping vent emotions. I’ve been making sure to treat myself, rather than stick to closely to my diet regimen. If I’m feeling good, I’ll run down to a fast food place and cement the positivity with chicken nuggets or roll a fat blunt. If I’m tired, I nap or sleep longer. It’s been a matter of being sensitive with/to myself, being as much of a loving support as I need to be.

Hope you find personal salvation from the pit of despair broseph.

stonersguidetogames said: yo u in England if not i will take a holiday to where ever u are soon and we shall get high as fuck what do ya say?

for sure bra

jingles-pigtails said: There's an episode of Star Trek TOS called "The Galileo Seven" where several crew members are stuck in a shuttlecraft reentering the atmosphere, and the cabin fills with smoke and everyone looks stoned as fuck. I was wondering if you happened to have gifs of that (it's a long shot, I know)

No, but I’m wondering why I don’t, and why the trekkers haven’t made some themselves. I’ve been seeing an overabundance of TOS re-caption photosets and gifsets lately, I’m surprised no one’s tackled that episode.

I might have to give it a shot myself, I’ve been in a gif making mood lately.

spindip said: Have you seen the "Night of the Doctor" minisode? What did you think?

It gave me goosebumps. They had me when they brought back the witches from Tom Baker era and had McGann making quips at them. It made me fall in love with McGann and the way he’d developed over the Big Finish arc. Although a bit rushed, a little forced Shakespearean, it was very appropriate. Made up for his odd performance in the DW movie. Got me pumped for the special in a few days! And I’ve been digging into the 8th doctor’s audio novels now, hoping to get more of that awesome performance.

trannytarkington said: Damn dude, just realized you were the WPD moderator. Awesome. Besides Thug Kitchen, WPD and Oscar are my favorite blogs. If you and the lady ever get down to Tampa you have a host!

Thanks man, appreciate it (: Always down to blaze if I’m in the area.

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fuckoffpornblogs said: You're very attractive

videogamesandmaryjane said: Might wanna check out tumblr user smoke-pot-everyday. Another person stealing your photos/gifs. Just a heads up.

Thanks man. Reported a few posts, hopefully Tumblr will take notice. 

moose-nips said: Hey! I was just wondering what program you use for your work? do you just use Photoshop for your vectors and such? any advice you can give me is much appreciated, thanks!

Illustrator for vector and type. Photoshop for raster. Same shit though, both have the pen tool.

bannannasplitt-deactivated20140 said: I see a lot of fake movie posters roll through my dash but this one was the one that did it: bit[.]ly/1aIHPqJ - Where the cheese balls was Tumblr when the Brooxter gave us the movie poster assignment; I would've liked to maybe NOT have fail miserably.

I know that feeling all too well! If I had this kind of access to inspiration in school, graphic projects would have been way more fun.

waffle-jones-deactivated2014030 said: Random: Ever watched Spaced?

I’ve tried, on multiple occasions. Only made it to the first or second episode. It’s flow and cinematography is just way too slow/weird for me. I love Simon Pegg though.

bannannasplitt-deactivated20140 said: You should watch Orphan Black.

I’ve been seeing it everywhere! And I need more TV to watch. Might have to check it out tonight~

also ily<3

moose-nips said: besides web design/ drawing are there any other creatively expressive things you like to do?

Life is an act of creative expression. Every action we make has a wake in reality. We’re in control of it’s conception, and we alone design and execute them.

A walk to the kitchen could be mechanical, or it could be as fluid as water. Cooking can become colourless chemistry, or it can be a captivating cacophony for your senses.

Life is art for me. I try to consider every impression I leave on this world and give myself to it.

Though plainly I suppose there’s yoga, illustration, singing, conversing, photography/videography.